It's been one month of dedicating myself to reading the Bible every day, and for the most part, I've succeeded. There have been a few days where I skipped a reading and had to catch up or read ahead knowing the next day would be busy. I'm not sure I agree with my "philosophy" about this because shouldn't every day have some time dedicated to reading God's Word and if I keep allowing this to happen, won't it be easy to stop altogether one day? But reality being reality, I am letting this happen for the time being.
Getting beyond the reality for a minute, this experience has been exciting. I have loved spending time reading the Bible. Whether it's first thing in the morning to help me prepare for the day or reading right before going to sleep, I've been excited about it all. It's always been fun to read Genesis, but this time was especially interesting. I found myself asking many questions and discovering parts of the stories that I had forgotten about or simply never knew. I also found it quite interesting to read Job. There are so many intriguing parts of this book, both for what is said and for what isn't said. I'm not sure I like the ending and God's response to Job about everything that's happened to him, but I don't really have a choice, do I? I just have to accept it for what it is and try to figure out what the words can say to me.
Figuring out what God is saying to me through all of this has been interesting. I can't say he's "spoken" to me. In fact, there have been many times this month where I felt farther away from God and simply just overwhelmed by life. But there have been just as many times where I've been excited to read the Bible and question what is said or memorize scripture or look for more details about a specific story or phrase. That's what has me pumped up about this whole process. I'm finding myself wanting to read the Bible versus feeling I have to read the Bible. And that's what I've been searching for . . .
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